I have had a lot of reasons to think about my life the past little while. I have been able to share things with a friend that I have not been able to share with anyone else and it feels good to finally get what has been on my mind for several years off. I have been able to see how someone can believe in something so much that there is no question in there mind. I admire that so much. I have never been so certain about something and here is this amazing person who has absolutely no doubt.

I have been doing good in school. I can't even believe I put going to collage of for so long. My spanish class is the best. I love how everything is coming back to me and how easy it is. It brings back great memories of high school and all the fun and exciting times we had with Marcela and Pablo. I loved being able to just stay at there house for the whole summer and sleeping outside under the stars almost everynight. I miss always being able to go shopping with Marci and that it did not matter what we bought or how much we paid.

I have a lot of great memories of my childhood. I loved and looked forward to being able to go on our summer campout as a family up at Payson Lakes. Now here I am grown and with a child of my own and no time to take her on a campout like that. I realized that money is not the only thing in this world that you need. You need friends and family, religion and love, memories of your childhood and stability. I will try my best to better her life and to make sure that she has all of these and more.

One thing that I have been thinking of a lot the past while is my relationship with Darren. I have been think about the begining of the relationship when he would promise me the world. Where he would always call to tell me that he loved me or that he was thinking of me. I used to love how he would surprise me at work with flowers. I have been sifting through the memories in my mind trying to figure out what went wrong and where I failed. I feel like I have let so many people down.

I am excited and scared for the future. I know that it holds a lot of adventures that I will come across and face. I just hope that I will be able to learn from my mistakes and that they will make me a better person.